ESTABLISHING YOURSELF (a few details that help somemothers know what they have in common with you).
I am 32 years old.
I am married.
I have 2 children. Here are their ages/genders: 34 months-girl and 6 months-girl.
I stay home.
I have caviar taste on a Wal-Mart budget.
I live suburban.
I just bought our first home.
I completed high school then took 10 years to “find myself” and complete a college degree that put me so far into debt that I’ll never be able to repay in my lifetime and am now armed with skills in an industry that is not needed in a depression… excuse me “recession”.
I am straight.
Of note about my ethnicity and/or cultural background: I’m as mutty as they come, but consider my cultural background to be “West Coast”.
NOW, TWENTY QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU
- The most significant aspect of my upbringing.
I’m the eldest and only girl with 4 younger half brothers. Spent my time moving back and forth 3,000 miles between parents. It’s not my fault I’ve lived in the most beautiful places in America, so I try very hard every day to lower my expectations of… everything and everyone.
- My best advice to mothers about to enter the stage of child rearing that I just went through.
Do not take for granted your babies. Sure, they can’t wipe their ass, but they are the fuel for your soul.
- Something that concerns me about my child(ren).
I worry intensely about raising girls as I have not conquered my demons as of yet. I feel like I should have done that before I had children, but I’m not even sure I know how. I worry about passing on my food issues, my anxiety, and my people pleasing, my persistent negative self-talk.
- My absolute worst mothering moment (so far).
I am still mortified at how I yelled at my daughter and spanked her one time when she would quit getting out of bed at night. I didn’t seem to have a lick of common sense in my head that day. It haunts me now and I hope she never remembers it.
- What annoys me most about other mothers.
Moms who are constantly competitive—oh your child can do this? Mine was doing that weeks ago!!! Moms who don’t discipline their children in public (I don’t mean spanking, I mean consistent parenting no matter where you are).
- I am happiest when.
My daughter comes up to me and tells me she loves me and snuggles me tightly. There is no where else in the universe I’d rather be.
- I am saddest when.
I feel out of control, like a bad mom, bad wife, bad friend, etc., etc., I can get myself down pretty easily.
- My biggest fear.
My biggest fear is losing my family. I am constantly thinking about “what if…” because I feel so lucky and I always worry that it can be taken away at any moment.
- I am ashamed of.
There is nothing I am ashamed of but myself. My body probably. It disgusts me.
- Something I need to forgive.
Hahahahaha. One thing? Well, my therapist and I have started by trying to forgive my parents. Work in progress.
- Something I wish I could say to someone.
Are you a moron or what?
- Something I have never told anyone.
I’m pretty open, pretty extroverted, and make friends easily so I’m not sure there is anything I haven’t told anyone.
- Something I am trying to change about myself.
I am trying to change my lifestyle, my eating, my thoughts about my body.
- My biggest accomplishment.
I guess successfully raising a little human being this far has been my biggest accomplishment. The icing on the cake: she’s sweet, smart, kind, and hilarious. I have to give that up to her, but I’ll take credit for nudging her along that path.
- I wish.
I wish I was perfect and never made bad decisions.
- Something my relationship with my mother has taught me about parenting.
Anger is a genetic disease.
- Something my relationship with my father has taught me about parenting.
Physical affection is more important than things.
- How I would describe my faith life.
Spirituality can be found, cultivated, and celebrated from within.
- Something I hope will be different for me by this time next year.
I’d like to be working for the first time in 3 years.
- Something important about my story that hasn’t been captured by the questions above.
You haven’t figured out that I’m extremely hard on myself and others yet? Idiot…
- BONUS: A question you would like to see added to this list that readers can respond to in the comments.